Thanksgiving and Holidays

I got most of my cooking done on Wednesday and only had to make the potatoes, shape the rolls and roast the turkey breast on Thursday. TD was finishing our fence repair and Moe had gone for sparkling cider when everything was done. We ate, did our usual what we were thankful for and then it was over. By the way, I said I was thankful that Fiona was finally done with chemo and that TD had such a great job. Then I started the clean up. But all of the while, I felt strangely let down. I thought about it a lot while I was cleaning up and finally came to a conclusion. As a child, everything about a holiday was fun and exciting and yummy. As a grown up, we are now in charge of putting everything together ourselves, which seems to take some of the magic and fun out of the day. I think also, for me, I miss the huge groups of family. We could've gone back to Oregon for the holiday but I don't think it would've solved anything. I love the idea of family, especially my big one, but actually being around everyone is sort of depressing.
I think I also like to cook for a lot of people. There's something about cooking for someone who doesn't eat (and sneer) at my food on a daily basis. Thank heavens for Moe, she never has an unkind word to say about dinner. It helps that I don't serve her two least favorite foods, baked potatoes and green beans, very often. We did get an invitation to a Christmas Eve dinner and I think we will take them up on it. I have been used to being around large groups of people at the holiday and I think I really miss it.
PS, I think next year, I will make a couple of different kinds of pie. Pie always makes me feel better. Of course, I think I will be better prepared to eat lots of pie next year. I won't be feeling so miserable and not so much wanting to work out.